Finally Went Off The Deep End

[cavscout1967]

Last week I let my shrink have it with both barrels. I stated in no uncertain terms that I was unhappy with my rating and how the VA screwed me over on it and how the xxxx could I not have depression in my C&P but no a few months later I have been diagnosed with it by him and have anti-social personality disorder but then later he has me take the MMPI and it now its paranoid personality disorder and depression.

I told him I felt like coming down there and knocking the shit out of some of them and that I felt both suicidal and homicidal and that I wanted to seriously hurt that C&P lady who initially evaluated me and gave me the anti-social DX. I find it hard to beleive that she says that and less than 1 yr later I have the other stuff I stated by the other VA shrink.

So in a nut shell today I go down there and get my records and I see in in my shrinks notes he says a "behavioral flag may be needed and unfortunatly that may impact the teams( me and my 2 shrinks) ability to work together and therefore verify the pt's paranoid view of the VA".

So now what? What can happen? Cops in my session? Dont up my rating?

I have already done anger managment with VA and I am taking 2 types of meds. citalopram 40mg and mood stabaliser one 15mg

Thanks and if you want more info just ask

[cavscout1967]

I was on lithium for treatment of depression before I went in the Army. Thanks to all of you who have taken the time to respond and give me your input. I find it hard to comprehend how the VA will now say shit like I signed a waiver etc. I did have a meps doc sign a waiver certifying me as fit for service but that was it.. I think I have a pretty good case for aggravation of condition by service. At least I hope thats the case. I will be happy to answer anymore questions you may have.

Thank you all

PS. I want to add the waiver thing was brought up by a VARO officer at the va hosptal when I went to ask what the status was of my appeal. I thought he was supposed to be on my side. Seems after reading what you guys wrote here he was wanting to screw me over.

[Papa]

Cav- You must realize that in our time period the military would accept anyone as long as they were walking up-right. I don't think it would have mattered what was wrong with us, we were going to be accepted.

Papa

[john999]

Papa

I remember guys who had heart condtions in basic. They just ran them til they passed out and half killed them. I feel they are just trying to bS CAV. I knew many guys who were given the choice of jail or the army. Talk about anti-social PD. During the draft era if you had a pulse you were sworn in as fit. We got what they called a physical exam. You would have to have TB or bubonic plague to be ruled unfit.

[stillhere]

Papa

I remember guys who had heart condtions in basic. They just ran them til they passed out and half killed them. I feel they are just trying to bS CAV. I knew many guys who were given the choice of jail or the army. Talk about anti-social PD. During the draft era if you had a pulse you were sworn in as fit. We got what they called a physical exam. You would have to have TB or bubonic plague to be ruled unfit.

You are right there!! Hell I had to brothers in at the time NAVY so I tried to sign up. took the test but flunked the hearing test so they would not take me.

Went on with my life then I got drafted out of the blue so I thought hey no big deal I will take the test and i will be sent home. Hell no they passed me and wanted to put me in special forces! I said wait a minute I can't hear good. they said good enough for US Army!!

[stillhere]

Last week I let my shrink have it with both barrels. I stated in no uncertain terms that I was unhappy with my rating and how the VA screwed me over on it and how the xxxx could I not have depression in my C&P but no a few months later I have been diagnosed with it by him and have anti-social personality disorder but then later he has me take the MMPI and it now its paranoid personality disorder and depression.

I told him I felt like coming down there and knocking the shit out of some of them and that I felt both suicidal and homicidal and that I wanted to seriously hurt that C&P lady who initially evaluated me and gave me the anti-social DX. I find it hard to beleive that she says that and less than 1 yr later I have the other stuff I stated by the other VA shrink.

So in a nut shell today I go down there and get my records and I see in in my shrinks notes he says a "behavioral flag may be needed and unfortunatly that may impact the teams( me and my 2 shrinks) ability to work together and therefore verify the pt's paranoid view of the VA".

So now what? What can happen? Cops in my session? Dont up my rating?

I have already done anger managment with VA and I am taking 2 types of meds. citalopram 40mg and mood stabaliser one 15mg

Thanks and if you want more info just ask

We are ALL (MOST) fellow vets here! I did what you did with a rehab counselor and got escorted out of her office and pretty much blew any chance I had with rehab! You are going to have to get your mind in a happy place and tell these people how this disease is effecting you. Trust me the guys with the "white jackets" are right down the hall and they will use them.

So brother one vet to another Stay Cool!

good luck on your claim and talk to your docs!

[cavscout1967]

Got my decision today. Denied for all. All denied because I cant prove the depression or anxiety. The other four denied because I can flex this degree or that degree. So I now see that going to the VA monthly and whining how sore I am and having my cane and walking slowly etc is how this game is played. So for the next 2 GD yrs I will be doing just that and then I will try and get my four I can appeal raised. The four are finger 0, shoulder 0, ankle 10%, knee 0 plus tinnitus but thats at 10% already.

They didnt even look at my new VA records and evrything was evaluated from my intial exam but I suppose thats how it works they only review the inital case. I will do a BVA but I am not holding my breath.

Least I think I now understand how this GAME gets played. Wish I had known it sooner. Just keep going down for everything..New pimple on my back..I complain and get it documented.

Thanks for all your help folks.