ptsd Just Returned From My C & P Exams

[TANKERJOE0]

i just returned from 3 c&p exams today.

i am besides myself.

please people dont critisize me for the way i type this post???

im trying to unwind and catch my breath and find some help from seasoned vets with this experience.

the dr who conducted my exam for my ptsd claim was sooo condescending,rude,very impolite and very uncaring or thorough.

i brought my wife with me and he said she was not allowed in the exam????

i asked once again once we got into his room as to why she cant be in w/me and he said because this is what i said is going to be done and thats it???

i have terrible anxiety and memory problems so i needed her to analyize and help me during and after the exam???? about what happened??

he vigoursly interrogated me for about a half hour and it was over.

he did not even touch on any of the problems i face or effects it has on my life.

he asked me more about my child hood, arrest records, drinking problems???

of which i dont have any???

i hope there is a way to justify my claim in another way???

i dont know what all the acronyms mean nod or dro hearing?

i guess ill be reading up on all of this while i wait on the decision to come back??

all 3 exams went almost exactly the same,except the drs were nicer then the phsyc???

i felt like i was on the stand being cross examined by the prosecutor for a capital murder trial???

i was so thrown off, i dont even remember what he asked?? what i said???

i just was sooo uncomfortable and feel violated???

there is no need to conduct an exam like this.

i have severe anxiety issues as it is just going out in public anymore.

let alone have this guy be this way?????

i left the appointment and went outside and literaly cried to my wife that i cant believe it went like that??

ill await the decisions and then i guess go from there.

i guess i should have expected this. from reading so many posts i should have been prepared for a fight till the end.

i already fought in a war??thats whats made me like this.

i didnt think id be home fighting again against my own govt.?

i am so angered that this is how vets are treated after returning or serving our nation.

i thought i truly knew about it from hearing news stories about other veterans, war veterans (vietnam vets) what they were being treated like.

and how they were and are still treated today.

but i truly apologize from the bottom of my heart.

me and millions of other americans dont truly know what vets go through.

its a crime that should be punishable by laws!!!

now that i got just a little taste of what goes on.

i just knew in my heart though that someone could examin me for an hour and just know from what i told them how bad i am actually feeling.

but was i ever wrong.

any body have anything to say???

thanks

tankerjoe0

[Testvet]

they have let my wife into every C&P exam I have ever had except for PTSD they have banned her both times the first time I got 50% and on appeal I got 100% P&T so don't let it depress you the bastards never let you see what they are really thinking don't get upset until you get the enevelope and it took me about 3 months after the C&P I have a BVA hearing on Feb 4 and I am what into my 7th year just don't GIVE UP thats when they win

[purple]

(((((tankerjoe))))))

i'm so sorry you had to go through this. you are right...you should not have been treated like this. please know that you are not alone. take some time to settle down and perhaps do something good for yourself...do you have a hobby? or have a comfort food you like?

take a few days before you start thinking appeals and nod's and all that crap.

take good care...

[rentalguy1]

You'll be fine. Don't sweat it. Maybe be a bit more forceful on the wife thing next time, though. My C&P doc said my wife couldn't come in to my MH C&P. When I stood I told her to come on. He said "I just said she can't come back." I said "I don't f******g care what you said." That was the end of the discussion, and he was nice and polite to both of us, and wrote a very favorable report. It was the rater who screwed me in my claim. I only got rated for 30% when the language was in the C&P for a 70% rating.

[TANKERJOE0]

i want to thank everyone for there kind words of encouragement.

im not trying to jump the gun before i even get my results back.

but i was truly not prepared for the treatment i recieved. or lack thereof.

it just doesnt even feel the slightest bit positive in my favor by his actions.

one of the ?'s he asked towards the end was do i ever think of killing anyone??

i wanted to so bad say yeah at this moment in time "YOU".

but wasnt sure if i wanted to stay the night or who knows how long in a padded cell!! lol

im glad i didnt say anything because i was telling one of the other drs i had an appt with, how rude and ignorant the dr was.

and he told me how they have had death threats in their office.so they take that kind of stuff very seriously.

im with you rentalguy.i went with it at first.the whole no wife thing.

and then after he started interogating me i forcefully asked him why my wife couldnt come in.

as ive heard numerous vets say they had there wifes in with them??

and i just kept remembering that people on here told me to not freak out on the dr as it would not help my claim???

it took every ounce of strength in my body to not go off the deep end rip his F$@#&*^ head off.

thanks agin for the support

tankerjoe0

[Commander Bob]

It sounds like the PTSD examiner was probably more concerned about filling out a VARO required form, than helping you deal with your PTSD at the time, TANKERJOE.

I remember in 2008 when rentalguy 1 responded to a vet that had the same experience as you,...[[ "Sorry for your experience, but don't judge the whole system based on one incident. We can all have a bad day, so maybe give her ( the C&P doc ) the benefit of the doubt. I have seen some really great C&P docs, as well as regular VA docs. I have also seen some really bad ones, too. You'll know exactly what the doc had to say when you pick up your C&P results in a few weeks."]]

Until then I think purple is right on target... take a little R&R for a while. Try to have a good weekend with the family.

My most positive thoughts are with you.

Edited January 16, 2009 by Commander Bob 92-93

[TANKERJOE0]

bob you are much kinder then me.

i would never give this doctor the benefit of the doubt. :)

im a pretty good judge of character.

and this guy is no good.

im wondering how long do i wait??? and how do i get a copy of my exams??

i live in jacksonville florida.and go to a va clinic here.

the c&p exams and any specialist visits are in gainesville or lake city.

will i be able to go to release of info. here in jax and get a copy????

thanks again everyone!!!

tankerjoe0