ptsd Weird Question, Maybe Paranoid...

[hedgey]

I have PTSD from a personal assault. Okay, that comes with all the anxiety, fear, paranoia, etc. Claim with the VA still in progress.

Okay. Now I've filed for SSDI, and done the applications, etc. It was a struggle, but I got it done.

Here's my weirdness: I've just seen in our paper a help-wanted advert for someone to do video surveillance for workman's comp. I suspect trying to catch mr. smith, who is WC for back injury, bowling or break dancing.

Okay. That's the way they operate, okay. What I'm asking here is will the SSA be sending someone to watch me? I mean, they won't see me doing much because I don't go out much. Will they be looking in my windows? Will I go to jail if I shoot someone on my property and it turns out to be a SSA surveillance person? I sleep with a loaded shotgun by the bed. There's another one by the door (secured, but handy) and I have a dog that doesn't have a sense of humor about people who might be prowlers.

This is terrifying to me. If this is what filing for or getting SSDI means, being watched by strangers, I can't do this. They can keep their money, I can't do this...

[carlie]

hedgey,

I really don't think it's worth being worried about this issue and letting it upset

you any.

And yes, I do know it's hard to shove this out of your mind but it really

would be in your best interest, if you can.

As I posted - yes, it is possible that SSA can do this - but it would be quite rare.

I'm sure you have bigger things to worry about :)

[halos2]

Hedgey, Nothing is impossible. You wrote the position was for workman's comp...but there are people in many arenas who try and lie and get something for nothing. With the type of claim you have someone observing you in your yard would not be able to/nor qualified to assess your mental ability/disabilities. As far as shooting someone, here in Mo they say only if they come into your house, can you get a break...so they all say drag em in the house, if you shoot em outside. I do believe this is a pun here in the midwest. I do not advocate shooting someone unless your life was in danger...Go the legal route, call the police if someone is in your yard/drive/parked by your house with a camera. Try not to be so paranoid about everything, easier said then done though.

Concentrate on your claim and seek info you may need to further it along. Remember we are just a message away here at hadit to help or direct you to others who may help you to triumph.

I read and reread my c-file and all the evidence, and there have been times I found a word or two documented that may help my quest. PTSD is traumatic and we are NEVER able to escape the grip it has on us, but seek your counselor out if you are suffering more and possibly a medication adjustment could help you too. If you are a spiritual person, pray to the subject/idol you believe in as this might give you even a small amount of peace or tranquility.

Some days are bad, and some are worse, but we all need to decide to try and find something pleasurable, like it didn't rain here again as it has for 11 days out of 14. To me, thats what I was greatful for today. Staying alive to win my claims, is another thing I am greatful for. Chronic PTSD, Chronic Pain and my other diagnoses, I hate, but breathing I an glad to be doing.