tdiu Will I Escape My Anti-Social World

[82airborne]

Well this is a new thread. I have completed a 16 week course of psychotherapy in a group of about 10-15 people. I have realized I prefer being alone away from strangers. I hate going to hospitals and it's a bunch of STrANGE individuals around me. Right now I'm feeling extra jittery lightheaded shaky all of the above. My question is how will psychs are MEDS stop these crazy thoughts that I have. Will I stay jittery. I swear I take about close to tn pills a day my primary are physician says that my liver points are up. It could be because of the pills I don't know. That's one reason I been paranoid of going to the doctor. When I didn't go to the doctor all my lab results was fine. Now that I keep current with doctors it seems my health s getting worse and worse. Ok I'm 90% disabled my income is ok and stable but it as done nothing far as my mind and the way I think. So I realize like a said months ago no money in the world would benefit you if your mind isn't right. So yes I plan on staying in therapy just not group counseling. I will only leave the house for doctor visits and psych visits. I will avoid being around strangers because I still have a very violent side that's easily provoked. This February I turn 40. Will I part I doubt it. I have no real. Desire to party with others. Even with my family I have mild desires of being with. So this is where I'm at right now. My insurance waiver has been waived for 10,000 dollars of insurance I called the insurance to check and make sure I was right because in my health right now death. Is certan to my future. I told her I was 90% disabled and my fees was waived she said the only way it was waived if I was Lund totally disabled. So I guess they got me at 10O% disable they just haven't told me. I don't know. I plan on calling the 800 number to check to see if I need to submit anything for the tdiu part of my claim. OOOOH well today starts a new chapter of my life after group therapy. Once again THANX for having me one more time. This place have helped me get through many miserable nights when insomnia reared it's ugly head after I wrote out my thoughts on here I was able to go to sleep so I guess venting helps

[john999]

I went to group therapy for many years. It helped me most during the first few years. I did not use VA group. The group I used was run by private psychologist. The group was small and there was some but not that much turn-over. There were vets and non-vets in the group. It helped me see myself a bit as others saw me. I believed I had a big X on me that others could see or sense. It was not true. I found if I acted normal I could be normal. Nobody saw that I was cracking up on the inside. People just judge you, or like, or dislike you based on your actions directed at them.

John

[82airborne]

I went to group therapy for many years. It helped me most during the first few years. I did not use VA group. The group I used was run by private psychologist. The group was small and there was some but not that much turn-over. There were vets and non-vets in the group. It helped me see myself a bit as others saw me. I believed I had a big X on me that others could see or sense. It was not true. I found if I acted normal I could be normal. Nobody saw that I was cracking up on the inside. People just judge you, or like, or dislike you based on your actions directed at them.John

My thing is I just dont trust people enough to be around them and I don't want to have these crazy thoughts about people. I would rather just try little by little introducing myself back to the public. I don't know I'm going to just try to take it day by day. But for NW I'm just going to do one on one counseling I'm not ready for group therapy. I got a couple issues I need to get rid of

[63SIERRA]

being anti social aint so bad, I dont like most humans either, my dogs are all I need, and wife and kids to hell with everyone else.

[82airborne]

being anti social aint so bad, I dont like most humans either, my dogs are all I need, and wife and kids to hell with everyone else.

Yeah that's the way I feel. But in therapy they make it seem like its strange to just want to be left alone. I guess that's the civilian way of thinking.

[63SIERRA]

many animals are loners, badgers, bears, hermit crabs, wolverines, .. think of it this way, when u were in the service, you had no choice of the day to day people u were forced to co exist with. you had to put up with them, and act like u tolerated them. now you dont have to, so why should you. When so called friends come over, tell them u have no money to loan, no tools to loan, your truck isnt running good and u cant take them anywhere, you forgot how to fix things, and see how often u see them again after that. I never understood when I was younger, why my dad never really had friends over, or went visit people, and such, but now I undertand exactly why. He had no use for all of the FUGTARDS. He would get a few 40s from the store, roll up some kite tobacco stogies, put on some hank sr, or roy acuff, or bill monroe, and crank up the ole phonograph.

Edited November 16, 2013 by 63SIERRA

[82airborne]

Yes I totally agree.