Extremely Sorry And Embarrased

[TANKERJOE0]

I JUST GOT HOME FROM WORK AND READ THE POSTS.

I AM SOOOOO SORRY FOR THE WAY I ACTED.

I SINCERLY APPOLOGIZE.

I WAS HAVING A BAD DAY.

NOT THAT IT MAKES IT ALRIGHT TO TAKE IT OUT ON THE PEOPLE WHO ARE TRYING TO HELP ME.

I DIDNT MEAN TO TAKE IT OUT ON ANY OF YOU.

I FULLY UNDERSTAND THE POST WAS HARD TO READ.

WINGS I APPRECIATE THAT YOU BROKE IT UP AND MADE IT EASIER FOR PEOPLE TO READ.

I ALSO APPRECIATE ALL THE WONDERFUL KIND WORDS AND SINCERE CONCERN FOR ME

THAT PEOPLE POSTED.

I FIND THIS SIGHT TO BE SO OVERWHELMINGLY HELPFUL.

I WOULD NEVER WANT TO JEOPRODIZE THAT.

I HOPE THAT EVERONE I HAVE OFFENDED CAN ACCEPT MY APPOLOGY.

TANKERJOE0

[Stretch]

TankerJoe0,

I'm in.

[Rockhound]

The nice thing about having memory problems, you don't have to wait for apologies, there a given, since I can't remember what the apology is for in the first place. LoL LoL LoL :D :)

Rockhound Rider B)

[MikeR]

Many here have PTSD & other problems that we have fought with the VA for years. When we ended up at Hadit, we found a home. Even after 100%, not a lot changes except the money. We all need someone to bounce our ideas & problems off. The meds & groups can help, but I don't miss a day at Hadit. Even if I don't post for days it is reassuring to have this site & the many veterans & Fambly members to back you. Not one of us can take credit for winning our claims or dealing with the VA without help from someone. The knowledge at this board would put the VARO to shame. This is great place to get help, also to blow off steam. That saves many of us from raising hell with the VA, which is not a good idea.

Good Luck,

Don

I could not have said it any better. It's true about the part where Don says that the knowledge here would put the VARO to shame. I had to tell the lady at the AMC in DC to wait on sending my file to the rater last week. She said it was ready, I knew better. I have been able to effect what is in my file just from the advice from people here. It turns out that they don't have the info I sent in recently certified mail, and they did not have the info from the foot and ankle center that did my surgery which is enroute to them. So they were ready to rate without the information that even they requested. You have to be proactive, and remember that this is not a spectator sport. I have been fighting this claim going on 11 years in 2009 and I am now light years ahead of where I was due to the people at this board.

Mike

[Commander Bob]

Again, Welcome aboard Tankerjoeo. Now drop and pump out 20...LOL.

Obsessing about an upcoming C&P exam, especially during the time between the notice of the exam and when you finally get the C&P exam, appears to be a normal reaction to such an event. I've been there and done that. I felt relief immediately after the exam, on the way home from the VAMC. It was amazing how I felt a weight lifted off my shoulders, to have that part of the process over. That was November 29th. No matter if the exam was good, bad or ugly, you will have some relief just to have it over. Well, that was my experience, anyway. ( note: Rule #1, don't yell at the C&P examiner )

You write well here, and should be able to relate that to the PTSD C&P examiner. Have you already submitted copies of all the USMC records of your stressor & event, to the VARO??? I even submitted my Brigade daily reports & logs of the day I was wounded, with my PTSD claim. Like you, I tried to run through a mine field, but I only made it about half way. It also sounds like you were bounced around in that tank like a ball in a pin ball machine. TBI carries some of the same symptoms as PTSD. You can read about the different ratings for the different %s for PTSD. At the 100% level that you mentioned, would require you to be unemployable. Just look around Hadit for other PTSD postings, you will find the list. Again, Knowledge is power. Power & knoweldge is your ticket to freedom.

Good Luck Marine. Stay in touch, your story is a good read. We are on your side, Bro.

Cmdr. Bob

Edited December 31, 2008 by Commander Bob 92-93

[vmo]

An apology is a great thing, especially when it is heart felt and true. When the huge dam full of "stress" builds up and the dam wall cracks, it will result in an uncontrolled leak from the dam. An apology forms cement which is used to patch the crack in the dam--which is full of stress. *The dam will now hold. What you need to do is to find a way to release this stress--gradual, timely, peaceful, using patience, friends and family. Sure, it will not be easy. The people that have posted before me are letting you know they understand and want to help. I think you now understand you will find a lot of family in "Hadit", and some cement when needed.

[gp747]

An apology is a great thing, especially when it is heart felt and true. When the huge dam full of "stress" builds up and the dam wall cracks, it will result in an uncontrolled leak from the dam. An apology forms cement which is used to patch the crack in the dam--which is full of stress. *The dam will now hold. What you need to do is to find a way to release this stress--gradual, timely, peaceful, using patience, friends and family. Sure, it will not be easy. The people that have posted before me are letting you know they understand and want to help. I think you now understand you will find a lot of family in "Hadit", and some cement when needed.

i have done same thing and i would feel guilty for days you know sometimes

we go overboard ,but it is to be understood we are not quite right to start

with . if we were not having problems we would not be here talking about it.

these people at hadit have forgiven me also and i have appreciated it i havent

been able to contribute much in advice for people ,cause i am kinda new at the

game even though i have been fighting since 1971. i did not know how to fight

or what was going on til i got on hadit and started learning. you will be o.k.

wish you good luck