tinnitus I Am So Freakin' Mad Right Now!

[Money Mike]

So, i have been documenting nearly every ache and pain for the past 8 years so that i would have some ammo for the VA when i got out. and i just went to get all of my medical records (that i have never seen, to make copies of) and 4 years worth is missing!!!!!!! i have all kind of things in my records stating a HX of cluster headaches, IBS, PFS, tendonitis, MRSA, Chronic Pilonidal, 9x Acute Bronchitis, Gout, Tinnitus, etc. etc. etc...... but none of the actual doctors visits in which i was diagnosed with these things is in there. I also have bone scans and xrays that say thing like "possible arthritis in several joints in the hands and wrist, possible trauma to the shins, possible fractures in both wrists re-evaluate", BUT I WAS NEVER RE-EVALUATED OR DIAGNOSED WITH ANYTHING!!!!!! I am so pissed off right now, and my timeframe for BDD is very quikly slipping through my fingers!!!!! I know that there is nothing that you guys can do, i just needed to get this off my chest.

Thanks for listening,

Mike

[Pete53]

Thanks Mike I am glad that you are happy

[retiredat44]

i am in the process of getitng more evaluations,, I first had al these bogus statements and vcrappy half-assed diagnosis over al these years.. like Intestinal disease might just get you the bogus label as kook with IBS... which means they have no idea what you have and it maybe in your head..

So, right now I am trying to get my neurological disease nailed down to soemthing that the VA wil recognize, so I* am am going back to more doctors to get this all straighten out...

I have these symptoms in my records, they are clearly stated, but the diagnosis in my records is not rock solid.. only that I h ave they symptoms..

even back on active duty they show IH ad the symptoms.. but the symptoms have gotten much, much worse..

I am very angry at the whole process..

I was almost ready to kill myself just thinking about being screwed and al the suffering I go through..

I wonder how many people just say 'F-it!" and off themselves trying to fight the VA..

Today my surgeon for my pancreas disease was asking me to get more exercise,, but I am unable to because of my neurological disease.. and my surgeon knows damned well I suffer from these diseases, but i had to remind him, I have to go back to the neurolgist for help..

myu surgeons saw me in the hoppital bed for 6 motnhs and know the hell I go through..

meanwhile the Claim denials have pushed me into deeper depression..

I was going to mental health for many months to sessions.. and might end up there more all over again.. I am really a mess from al the BS the VA puts me through..

so, those of us that are so frakkin mad,, we are not alone there are untold thousands of us being jerked off..

It is insane to haul around a dolly with boxes of records.. I have boxes of medical records.. and have to put the boxes on wheels.. and tow it around..then the people I bring them too ask me about ogranzing them..

arrrghh!! MY hands and arms shake so bad I can't put 2 pieces of paper together..

and I have to go through this alone..

sure my representative help a little with knwoing what papers to file..

and of course I have to explain my life story to everyone..

but, I feel they have no clue and they don't share my rage, theyhave their 8 to 5 job and are ehalthy and have no clue what chronic pain is.. or a life long ilness that has a perosn ont he edge of just dying to get the hell over with..

and to get a denial letter is very devastating.. it's like a dagger through the back..

I feel they should have a doctor stand by when the clueless heartless scumbags mail out the denial sends the letter out, it shpould be presented with a doctor ready to call 911 !!

[Capt.]

Hello Mike,,,,you have some great advise from Halos and Wing and John . I also agree that keeping your EED is very important to you as you can gather evidence after that date to prove up your claim. I would file as soon as possible. Halos gave you some advice that is sound. You can get your buddy statements and statements from your friends , pastor , or doctors to help you. There is alot of help here to show you how on the archives also.

Hello Retired,,,,,I am very sorry your going thru this and I know perfectly well what your dealing with. It is not fair and most of us here know it. I too am in so much pain that day to day is a real struggle. My med list is huge and now since the AO ischemic heart disease recently added, it is really got me behind the 8 ball. I too am fighting them and the VA could care less. Please understand that you are not alone here and there is alot of help but you cannot give up. That means THEY win and there are others who are counting on you to bring your claim to the homestretch. It is the victorys I see posted here that keep me hanging on even as these diseases keep taking me down each day. One day I hope to post that I finally beat them and their silly denial until you die game. It is a struggle and you just got to hang in there and let this run its course. You will be victorious as I know I will also. I don't post here much lately as I am having too many difficult days. There are others here just like you and just like me that are depending on you. Keep your wits about you as you will need them until the time when you can shout the victory shout. Remember ,,,,,NEVER GIVE UP... God Bless, Bill

[john999]

Retired

If you kill yourself they win! You are right that the VA does not care. There are many thousands of vets and spouses in nursing homes who are not getting A&A. The VA is stalling and waiting for them to die. They are that cynical these people who are supposed to be taking care of vet, widows and orphans.