I have no idea what to do schizophrenia, impingement, migranes, nuralgia, myalgia

[Papawolfie]

Hey everyone. Ive been in the army for 5 years and im getting out in 197 days exactly and im just down right terrified. I wana cry at night cause im scared but my body wont let me shed one tear. Im here partly to get help to understand what i should do to get va disability, personal stories and partly for emotional support.

Im going to behavior health for suicidal ideation, depression and anxiety currently. Ive been speaking to my ex girlfriend shes studying to be a shrink and she thinks i have paranoid schizophrenia and i was speaking to my mother the other day she said my sister has said for the last 4 years that she thought i have it as well, they both have never met in their life. However i did abuse cough syrup a few times. And im afraid they might blame the schizophrenia on that. But i was seeing behavior health before that even. Military found out. Never got introuble for it. Dark history in my life, but i have overcome that thanks to my asap class. Thank you God. I just got a psychiatric evaluation done, but im still waiting on the tests to come back to know whats really happening i dont even know who i am and worst of all for service connection, i have no clue at all what to make of this.

I just had surgery for my shoulder impingement syndrome 2 weeks ago, they removed a bursa, did clavicular excision, and bicep tenesis. And ive healed well but still have a limited range of motion. (That much is all i know of va disability) 

I was told i have occipital nuralgia which causes me not only to have emence neck pain but to have incredible migranges daily i just walk around the motorpool acting like im busy but the pain is so bad i massage my neck and scalp to ease the pain and take naproxen like crazy, and when im off work not only do i stay home for fear of social interaction, i stay to nurse my headaches. I drink caffeine to help it and take more pain medication.

I have lower back problems that came out of no where. 4 years ago my chiropractor said its facet syndrome but i stopped going to him for the last few years cause it wasnt helping and i went to see my primary care provider again for it he said its para spinal myalgia. Gave me some muscle relaxers and said have a good day after I asked for a referal back to the chiropractor. He just blew me off i feel. But i have social anxiety im scared to be a bother..... And i know im just screwing myself over but i cant help how i am. And i have to schedule appointments for anything and hes always a month backed up. Idk what to do about anything ladies and gentleman. Im begging for your help here. Im bugging my family so much about my anxieties they are ignoring my phone calls even... I want 100% disability not because it gets me out of work. I LOVE WORKING. It makes me feel accomplished and like I deserve to live and breath Gods air. But mentally im not right in the head.... If you all ask i can even show you all a text i sent to my mother when i was having a really bad episode, and even that doesnt cover all of me. (You all dont know me so i feel a ok sharing this if it helps the advice i would be given.) i mean its 0308. My mind is just racing itself i cant sleep at all!! PLEASE HELP.

[Guest]

Since you are still on active duty you need to make sure all your medical conditions are noted/treated in your military records.  Basically, you need to see a doctor about all your medical and mental concerns.  The VA pays for compensation for disabilities that are noted in your medical records.  Make sure you get a copy of your records before you get out.  Always keep a copy for your own personal records.  If VA need a copy you can make them copies but keep your copy.  There is no guarantee that you will get a 100% VA disability rating. It is all based on your military records, your doctors opinion and VA regulations.  Also if you can not work you can also file for SSDI (Social Security Disability Insurance).  Also be forewarned with a 100% mental health disability Social Security and the VA may propose you to be incompetent to manage/handle your disability compensation pay.

Hope the best  

[Papawolfie]

I wanted to answer earlier on my phone but i didn't have the patience, almost felt claustrophobic. Rodger that Chief, but its so difficult to get to see my primary care provider i caught him eating one day at the food court and i mustered up all the courage and set my anxiety aside and bothered him. (when i was a boy i was throwing up and in incredible pain and was crying. My mom had to work the next day and it was 6 am when my mom had to wake up to go work she came in and saw puke everywhere cause i couldn't get up out of bed. She rushed me to the hospital and asked why i didn't wake her up i told her i didn't wana bother her, i ended up having meningitis of the viral type. i was told i almost died) that's how much i hate bothering people Chief, i still have that same mentality today. I asked him a simple question, "when would i be able to ever make another appointment with him" he said next month November time and that 160 day out thing to start my claims yeah idk. Im not trying to make excuses Chief. Not in the least.

I most deffinately will get my records! Haha not laughing at you just been hearing that non stop the last 3 days haha but its so true.

Yea i understand theres not guarantee... would be a wonderful blessing though I mean yea yay free moneys. But that way i can chase my dream of being a dog trainer as a side job to keep me busy and as a therapy too. Dogs really make me happy and when my dads dog is with me i feel such a weight off my shoulders. Would you think that would be a violation of the no working thing? I detest lying and i feel me working even though its a therapy for dog training could possibly be illegal. Its not good money in the least i hear. It is more of a passion type of ordeal. But if would be illegal than nevermind ill drop that though post haste.

So in addition to the VA disability i can file for SSDI?

And that incompetency thing you stated, what would they do? Just write my apts and such checks themselves to the business'?

I wana thank you for your time to helping me understand everything. It really is wonderful of you.

[Guest]

"would be a wonderful blessing though I mean yea yay free moneys."  I don't know why you think getting VA/SSA benefits is free money.  Living with disabilities is not a wonderful life, I think your understanding is way off.  The bottom line is you will need medical documentation that you have disabilities to warrant service connection.

[Papawolfie]

"would be a wonderful blessing though I mean yea yay free moneys."  I don't know why you think getting VA/SSA benefits is free money.  Living with disabilities is not a wonderful life, I think your understanding is way off.  The bottom line is you will need medical documentation that you have disabilities to warrant service connection.

You know what I said a lot of shit a few min ago. all I got to say is how dare you judge me. Period. I have 5 years of documentation of my suffering wanting to kill myself acutally screw this I needed help and your giving terrible help just alone in your judgemental persona. Have a good life. BYE.

Edited September 18, 2015 by Papawolfie

[Papawolfie]

This was more said that was mean BYE

Edited September 18, 2015 by Papawolfie

[Navy04]

Sorry to hear of your hard times bud, and yes Pete is on the money. I was Medically Retired in Feb 2013 after I spent 3 months in a Civilian Mental Hospital while on Active Duty. I became Permanently VA 100% Today, I am only 33, and I collect SSDI and my Wife is paid by the VA to take care of me, and yes I was found unfit to own weapons or handle finances. That is not the worse thing in the world, as I have a great Wife that takes care of everything. I don't think that Pete is being mean at all, basically he is informing you to not be embarrassed or scared about seeking benefits that you have earned and deserve. We are all for here, and truly wish you the best. I myself have been struggling for a long time prior to Hadit, and thanks to the Site and Great Folks on here, I am now Permanent and can focus on the health issues that are soon too come. Good luck, Keep us Posted, and God Bless my Friend!