My heart is with you. I wish you peace, and I urge you to take joy in it being over. My advice is to rest awhile and celebrate the finale. You are truly free from the burden of the fight, for a while, if you wish. I have experienced the torment that follows such letters. With me, it would come like a thief in the night. When I would wake in the morning, I would have a few moments of peace before the torment began. The reawakening of the argument, and my rebuttal to the VA's nonsense would replay like the annoying screech of a snooze button going off, and chase me out of bed. Coffee and toil helps, however, intrusive thoughts are a part of PTSD. I have learned that time heals these wounds of injustice. With time, I found peace in knowing that I was right and the VA was clearly and unmistakably wrong. I caught myself laughing at the VA, one morning, and in that moment, I found relief. Time is truly a miracle drug for such wounds. For many decades, because of the ten dollar rule, lawyers were not an option. Now, you can find a law firm that handles VA claims. You have developed a splendid file. Perhaps, after a while( barring any deadlines ), you could consider passing the torch to a lawyer. I have discovered that peace of mind is worth more than any retro check. My most positive thoughts are with you.
Bob